That happened to me not too long ago. I've always been able to see God through nature and speak to me through His creation, but then, just as it came, it went. And I missed it. I missed it desperately. All I could remember is that I must walk inthe truth that though I do not feel Him nor hear Him, His Word tells me that He is still with me and has not left me...that He is still faithful to me and I should be the same in return even though I don't feel it.
I began to think about that sometimes I don't feel love from or for Dale. But love is so much more than a feeling. As a matter of fact, my feelings change so much, I dare not base my decisions or reactions on them...I simply allow God to use them to show me where I am....kind of like an indicator light on a car, to show me my trouble spots. Even though I may not feel it at the time, the truth is that I love Dale with al of my heart and I am confident that he loves me. So though I may not feel it, I know it to be true, and that's what I live on.
So as I rock on seeking to be faithful even though I am not hearing from God, I head out to the golf course to walk and play 9 holes with Dale. Dale is running late so I have some time to putt and get myself ready. While walking to the first hole, I hear a Red Cardinal chirping. I look up and there sits this beautiful bird right in the midst of tons of power lines. Immediately, I heard the Lord say, "Even in the midst of your busy and loud life, I am still here, and you can hear Me if you would but listen."
Psalm 46:10
"Be still and know that I am God"
As Dale and I began to walk from one hole to the next, I am absolutely excited and praising God for me hearing Him speak again... I just felt so at home again....at total peace....such comfort....such confidence....can't even explain it. We get to one of our last holes and I look over and see this older home with a huge TV antennae sticking out of it. I asked Dale if those things still got reception, and he said, "Nope, can't use those anymore; we can get much better reception nowadays." Again, I heard the Lord speak that as we grow closer to Him, we recognize new ways to engage Him, with a deeper reception than we've had in the past.
We finish walking our 9 holes and I jump in my car to head out and playing was a song called "Faithful" sung by Brooke Fraser (one of my favorite singers)....here's the words:
There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense You close, though I know You're always here
But the comfort of You near is what I long for
When I can't feel You, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear You, I know You still hear every word I pray
And I want You more than I want to live another day
And as I wait for You maybe I'm made more faithful
I wave my arms round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense You close, though I know You're always here
But the comfort of You near is what I long for
When I can't feel You, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear You, I know You still hear every word I pray
And I want You more than I want to live another day
And as I wait for You maybe I'm made more faithful
I just rode down the highway and cried. He spoke to a very deep place in my soul in such a special, precious, and loving way. He showed me that He was simply helping me grow to become more faithful....and He absolutely succeeded.
He is with you, even when you don't feel Him. He is hearing You even when you feel your prayers are bouncing off of the ceiling. He does care. He is so faithful. Even when He's silent.
He is with you, even when you don't feel Him. He is hearing You even when you feel your prayers are bouncing off of the ceiling. He does care. He is so faithful. Even when He's silent.
Jenna, Thanks so much for the reminder that God is ALWAYS with me.
"Be still and know that I am God." How he longs for us to draw near to him, he hasn't left he is always right there.
Michelle